Hello lovely readers,
Recently, I have been posting some more personal posts as opposed to my usual motivation/talk tips. The main reason why is because I have gone through some changes this week, such as attempting to sleep earlier, watch some dramas to ease the stress, stay on task at uni, be productive, or more often that not, trying to write things that I need to get off my chest.
This all might sound a bit dry coming from your average uni student, but trying these new things have been a long-term goal of mine. And so far, it’s been a fairly good progress.
However, this brings me to the next point. Earlier this morning, my seminar leader (a.k.a. tutor) for Constitutional Law announced that our marks for the mid-semester interim assignment would be out. So the marks got released at 5pm, and to save the shame (as I was sitting in the Law Library studying), I dimmed my laptop screen to the lowest setting ensuring that people walking by wouldn’t be able to see the grade. Anyways, I refreshed the page, and the next thing you know, I was overwhelmed with disappointment.
55%.
Just to be sure, I refreshed my page again, but the grade was still the same. Right then and there, I just felt like all my energy levels depleted and shrivelled up like my efforts were. However, this wasn’t the only low grade I got this year. In one of my accounting subjects, I also received 55% on a mid-semester test from last month. But to make matters worse, the 55% from the law subject was probably the first time I received such a low grade on an assignment in my three years at university. Yes, I know it’s not a fail, but I can’t help thinking I tried so hard and was expecting a decent grade.
Three years, and all I’m seeing every year is a decrease in my grades. Still no distinctions or HD’s, no nothing, just disappointment to say the very least.
However, I’m trying to stay as optimistic as I can, because I know you shouldn’t let your grades dictate your intelligence, potential, efforts, or knowledge.
So, here’s to a new a tomorrow everyone 🙂
– itsjacey
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I have been in the same boat with marks getting worse! I don’t know how university and school works where you live but have you talked to your instructors about how to improve or asked for extra help? I do it at my school and it’s great! My marks are getting better and I feel more confident in my learning!
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Thank you so much for the suggestion! I’ve never really been the one to ask for my work to be re-graded because I often feel too guilty, but I think it’s also time I didn’t feel that way and talk to my instructors 😀
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Yes you certainly can’t let your university grades dictate how smart you think you are as it’s not the only way to measure intelligence!
I must ask, how do you actually feel about doing the course that you’re studying? Is it something you enjoy and always wanted to do?
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Really appreciate your comment Emilia! And yes, no question at all haha! I love my degree and have been wanting to do it for as long as I remember, the only problem is I’m not great with individual assignments 🙂 However, I’m working on that and am never losing hope.
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Great! I’m glad you enjoy it, that’s the most important thing. I can say from experience that pushing through will eventually bring its rewards, and it’s not always in being able to get good marks, but the understandings and experience that you pick up along the way 🙂 unfortunately success in tertiary education is generally only measured one way (tests, etc.), so it’s easy to feel disheartened when you hit a bump in the road. Hang in there!
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